Random

It's midnight and I can't sleep so I guess I'll share some random thoughts that are in my head right now.......

I lllllllllllllooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee cadbury eggs! Not the gross ones with the stuff in the middle, the kind in the purple bag. mmmmmmmmmm, You think walgreens is still open?

Is Donald Trump really serious about this president buisiness? If so he really needs to do something about that hair. I mean for real, If he wants to represent the country as our fearless comander in cheif he's gonna have to take some serious action with that atrocity on his head. That kind of sounds vain but in all seriousness, do you think the leaders of China or any other country for that matter will even consider taking him seriously with the weirdness thats happening up there. Just sayin........

My closet is a rediculous mess! The door is open and I'm staring at it right now. How have I managed to collect so much clothing?!? What they crap was I thinking when I bought turquois capris? Guess it's time for another DI run.

I L O V E being in the young womens! It is awesome!

I was holding the cutest baby girl tonight at our ward part and I felt sad. After almost four years of trying for another baby I have finally found some peace with the reality that it might never happen and that's okay because I have the two most amazing kids in the world. But occasionally that feeling sneaks up on me. Who knows maybe someday it will happen. Either way I trust that Heavenly Father knows what is best for me even if I don't really agree with him. He's probably a lot smarter than me anyway.

Nick's snoring is OUT OF CONTROL!!!! ROLL OVER! I love you babe :)

Can I just say that my History class is the most BORING class I have ever taken in my life! It even trumps Mr. Scott's science class in 8th grade. I was all excited about taking it this semster because I love history. Nope, totally sucks................

Do you ever wonder if your mind works like everyone else's or if your the weird one?

I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE tuna fish. Yep it's disgusting. Thankyou to my pregnancy hormones five years ago I can't even think about it without vomiting in my mouth. Eww.

Well it will be interesting to see what I dream about tonight after all these weird thoughts. Donald Trump and Tuna fish huh...............................

I am still alive!

I know I know I have been terrible at this blogging thing lately. Between Taysons baseball games, Halli's gymnastics and music lessons, PTA meetings, school, homework, homework, and more homework, young womens, and sqeezing in some time to spend with the coolest person in the world (Nick), I have barely had enough time to eat something other than cereal or fruit snacks (seriously). I kinda feel like I'm strapped to the front of a freight train or somethin..... anyway- I have four more weeks left before the end of the semester YAY! Then maybe I'll have an extra second or two to hang out with my blog :)

LDS Video Cast Not Away Therefore Your Confidence

Broken Things to Mend

It has been quite a while since I last updated so I'll try to remember everything that has happened. We had a great Halloween this year. Tayson was Indiana Jones and Halli was an Avatar. ( I know weird for her). We did all the traditional stuff and had a blast. School has been a bit busy and crazy this semester and I am so ready for a break! But it's also been good to get back into it again. Nick graduated from P.O.S.T academy and I, being the perfect wife, forgot my camera grrrr. But he is officially now an officer and loves his job much to my dismay:/ Things are just rolling as usual around here. busy busy busy. But I love it that way. This morning we had a record snow storm in Boise. It was fun! I can't be too grouchy about it because school got canceled for me and the kids and because the weather is usually so warm here it will be gone before we know it. It made me miss Utah for just a bit but then I remembered all the times I was late for work because of the snow......... Anyway- We are all happy and healthy and life is good! oh ya and I forgot to mention that my kids both had birthdays this fall! Tayson turned 7 and Halli is 5 now. Crazy how fast they grow up!

Inspiration

In reference to the blog post below, I put his blog on my blog list on the right. Even though he started out writing just to people with the same challenge as his, his blog has kind of morphed into something that is uplifting for anyone to read no matter what challenges you face in life. I have no Idea what it feels like to have the challenge he does and I don't know anyone who does, but I do know that we all have difficulties and trials in life or we know someone who is struggling and needs our help. Don't be turned away by the title of his blog, read it first.

To touch His robe.

I wish I could take credit for this because it's really great but I actually found it on another blog. This guy is someone I have never met but his blog is incredible and inspires me to become better. He is a faithful member of the Church but has always struggled with same gender attraction. He is an incredible example of overcoming our weaknesses and temptations and turning to the Lord to help us through our darkest moments. Every time I read his posts my testimony is strengthened. This is just one of the many he has written but I wanted to share it. Enjoy

There's a story in the New Testament I always thought I understood. A woman with an issue of blood spent her life and life's savings trying to find a way to be healed. She worked with doctors, physicians, and people from all over the world... each who willingly took her money, leaving her poorer and poorer. Finally she was left with nothing. And then she heard that Jesus was walking through the streets near her home. "If I can but touch the hem of his robes," she thought, "I will be healed." And so she covered herself, pushed through the crowd, and reached out to catch the edge of His robe. In that moment, her pain disappeared. The issue of blood stopped. Christ turned, and after speaking with His disciples, spoke to her. "Woman, be of good cheer. Thy faith hath made thee whole."

I had always thought that this scripture was for people with great physical trials - that their faith would have the power to heal them if they just had enough and would just show it. Later, I thought that it extended to all those who struggle with major difficulties and trials in life - a promise that He would someday heal us. But I now realize that Christ wasn't speaking about touching His robe or asking for a miracle in life. He was teaching her, and all those following, a lesson on faith.

The true miracle of this story didn't come when the woman touched His robe. And, while impressive, the true miracle was not when the issue of blood stopped. The true miracle was the change in her heart - a willingness to submit to the will of the Lord and faith that He would bless her no matter what happened. It came because she had kept her faith, through difficult times, when everyone else in the world told her it was hopeless. It came because, though she had been deemed "unclean" by her ailment for decades, she held fast to the principles she knew to be true. It happened because she had done everything possible and finally given her life to the Lord. She changed her perspective - from one of expecting that money and power could heal her... to placing her trust in the Lord. And the healing of her issue of blood was just a symbol of the greater, more lasting change that had happened within her heart.

I used to think that simply doing everything I could would help me. That I could do it on my own. Then I realized that I needed to rely on the Lord, and expected Him to take away my grief. Now, I turn to Him and willingly place my life in His hands.

I don't know what tomorrow brings. But I know that God loves me, that He is involved in my life, that I can be happy and fulfilled in this life, and that, someday, if I am faithful, I will inherit all the blessings He has promised me. If the Savior stood beside me tomorrow and I could reach out to touch His robe, I would. But, if not, the greater miracle has already happened in my life.